Do you have everything?

I stumbled into this blog since I have been tinkering with entrecard for this past hour. One post got my attention, it is actually one huge image of a man in a contemplating of some sort position. The image has this caption:

If you look at what you don’t have in life; you don’t have anything. If you look at what you have in life; you have everything.

The message is so short yet very profound. It asks us to look at the glass half full rather than half empty. I think I have some glass proverbs somewhere in this blog, ahh here. My not so old post on looking at the bright side of things when pissed off. It’s quite funny that we often notice what we don’t have in life. We whine a lot about it. I know I complain a lot. Last night I realized, I complain a lot even before I get to understand the entire situation first and I know a lot of people who do the same.

This short phrase talks about contentment and finding the joy in what you have. When you are envious, tendency is you are never happy. When you look for something  you don’t have, you end up feeling frustrated at many points in your life. Our wants are insatiable which is why it is important to recognize what we have and like I said so many times not take it for granted.

What contemplations do you have on this matter?

James’ Gift

This is the work given by James to me for my birthday. He has a white and black version of this, but he printed out only black. I have both soft copies though. *grin* He did this using photoshop and the words he used for this are the words found in this very blog. It was very sweet of him and at least I had my reaction right this time. Apparently, most of my reactions are not what he expects I would show. This perfectly epitomizes the phrase, “if a picture paints a thousand words”. What do you think?

My Theory X and Theory Y

Theory X and Theory Y are originally theories on employee management motivation, created and developed by Douglas McGregor. I have been contemplating for the past couple of days on how I view people and my perception of the world in general. And I realize I am more of a pessimist rather than an optimist. Hmmm, I prefer calling myself a skeptic. How about you? I have redefined McGregor’s XY Theories to fit according to my likings and of course to understand the instant perceptions I make of others and of myself.

My Theory X

• Pessimist
• Easily notices the bad rather than the good
• Expects the worse in things
• Worried on a lot of negative things
• Not that open to change
• Self-centered
• So basically theory X is worry, worry on a lot of negative things.

My Theory Y

• Optimistic generally
• More open minded
• The good in others trumps the bad
• Expects for the good
• More open to change
• Unselfish
• This is generally the opposite of my  theory X

As I said I am theory X. I am such a negative thinker and one would understand that if you’ve read my previous post on my random paranoia. Even James was surprised to read my paranoia rundown. Indeed, my head is a scary place to be. I would sporadically ponder on am I just being real? Well, our world is not at all friendly and sometime the goodness get sucked out. But am I just being real? Am I reflecting my thoughts and my  perspectives on the harsh reality that we all fondly grew up to? However, in one book I read, it said there that we all have different worlds. And our world is dependent on our view, perspective and our environment. Now I am twisting things out and I’m asking an age old question that has no definite answer.

How did I come up with my theory X and Y? The theory X i s basically what I am now. Theory Y is what I hope I can change into. However old habits are hard to break. I want to see the world with a different glow however I just need to understand things, X and Y theory. There is more to it and that would lead us to an unfathomable question of life.

Do you ever have days like this? I frequently have my contemplating days which can be so darn annoying and addicting all at once. Do you have any advice for me?

When I’m pissed off, I….

Last night, I was throwing some kind of bitch fit, again, at James. PMS can be so hard for him. I am overflowing with estrogen and he gets to suffer my daily (2 week long) mood swings.

Anyway, as my mind was racing with all these thoughts, angry thoughts I might add, I really tried to rationalize every single emotion I have. At an impulse, I was mad, angry, frustrated, vengeful and  I felt sorry for myself the most. Sorry that I am this cautious, sorry  that I over analyze  things that I end up missing  an opportunity, actually that falls in the frustrated part. Anyway, whenever I’m in this sad state of mind, whenever everything is dark and gloomy in my world, I usually think off happy thoughts. Yes, after I throw a fit, after the countless curse and swears that come out of my mouth, I ask forgiveness from God and count my blessings.

Whenever you feel that you live a God forsaken life. Whenever you feel a gripping crisis in your life. Whenever you feel that you are not succeeding in anything. Whenever you feel envious of what others have. Whenever you feel you are in the bottom in the food chain. Count the blessings you received today. It will actually relieve you of those negative thoughts and you get to realize how lucky you are.

Last night, after the tantrum, when I was ready to break free of my anger, I inhaled deeply and said a prayer. During those few minutes, I thank Him at first for the obvious things, things that I don’t easily take for granted. And then, as I went on and recollect the blessings (or good things, I would often define it) I received for the day, I realize, I am thanking to God even for the smallest things.

Here are some of the things I am thankful for and surprisingly and strong cure for my angry thoughts.

1. I am with my family
2. My mom and dad are both healthy
3. I have a job
4. James and I are going strong
5. Coffee, yoda, autumn are happy dogs
6. We have food to eat

I have a post before on the 50 blessings I received. As I moved along the list, I realized that I am thanking God even for the most simplest (yeah, it is that simple) things. I tell you, it will really give you a fat smile across your face before going to sleep.

I ask forgiveness for the very mean things I said. Human as we are, we all say things we opt or didn’t mean to say to hurt others. For this let us recognize that this is wrong and that we should also try not to do it again.

If you’re pissed off, count your blessing and review your wrong.

Random Paranoia

Paranoia according to wikipedia is a disturbed thought characterized by anxiety and or fear. Our parish priest said, 80% of our worries are not true. Chances of your occasional paranoia has the likelihood of not even taking place. Once we are paranoid, decisions we make are subjective and rash. This is my rule of thumb, don’t make decisions based on highly unstable emotions. Here’s a quick thought: Just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean somebody is not out to get you right? Anyway, here is my quick list of my random paranoia for the past few weeks.

1. Is coffee (one of my dogs) still a happy dog with the lamp shade contraption attached to her head?
2. They hate my leadership, they hate me… nooooooooo…
3. Why is she not talking to me? Is she mad at me?
4. Are they talking about me?
5. Will he break up with me because of my sporadic tantrums?
6. I am getting fat.
7. I am not saving enough. I am going to be pauper in the future.
8. My boss hates my work performance this year
9. They are plotting my downfall as their tyrant leader… noooooo…
10. Is he going to snatch my cellphone or purse?
11. WTF?! Why is that dirty man starring at me?
12. What stories is he saying to the rest of our relatives now?!
13. Am I breaking any rules?
14. Will they hate this post?
15. My allergies are not going to get better.