Last night, I was throwing some kind of bitch fit, again, at James. PMS can be so hard for him. I am overflowing with estrogen and he gets to suffer my daily (2 week long) mood swings.
Anyway, as my mind was racing with all these thoughts, angry thoughts I might add, I really tried to rationalize every single emotion I have. At an impulse, I was mad, angry, frustrated, vengeful and I felt sorry for myself the most. Sorry that I am this cautious, sorry that I over analyze things that I end up missing an opportunity, actually that falls in the frustrated part. Anyway, whenever I’m in this sad state of mind, whenever everything is dark and gloomy in my world, I usually think off happy thoughts. Yes, after I throw a fit, after the countless curse and swears that come out of my mouth, I ask forgiveness from God and count my blessings.
Whenever you feel that you live a God forsaken life. Whenever you feel a gripping crisis in your life. Whenever you feel that you are not succeeding in anything. Whenever you feel envious of what others have. Whenever you feel you are in the bottom in the food chain. Count the blessings you received today. It will actually relieve you of those negative thoughts and you get to realize how lucky you are. 
Last night, after the tantrum, when I was ready to break free of my anger, I inhaled deeply and said a prayer. During those few minutes, I thank Him at first for the obvious things, things that I don’t easily take for granted. And then, as I went on and recollect the blessings (or good things, I would often define it) I received for the day, I realize, I am thanking to God even for the smallest things.
Here are some of the things I am thankful for and surprisingly and strong cure for my angry thoughts.
- I am with my family
- My mom and dad are both healthy
- I have a job
- James and I are going strong
- Coffee, yoda, autumn are happy dogs
- We have food to eat
I have a post before on the 50 blessings I received. As I moved along the list, I realized that I am thanking God even for the most simplest (yeah, it is that simple) things. I tell you, it will really give you a fat smile across your face before going to sleep.
I ask forgiveness for the very mean things I said. Human as we are, we all say things we opt or didn’t mean to say to hurt others. For this let us recognize that this is wrong and that we should also try not to do it again.
If you’re pissed off, count your blessing and review your wrong.
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